One Month, Several Days And A Million Seconds

Its now been over a month since I have quit smoking. I have had a couple of blips but honestly I feel a million times better now.

I honestly thought I would give up after a couple of weeks but I’m now more determined than ever to do it. I’ve found vape juices that I totally love which helps even more. Fatties liquid does a superb one called red cowwww which is a strawberries and cream flavour. I’m seriously in love with it at the moment. 

On the 21st i have another appointment at the gender clinic. I’m not feeling too nervous about it at the moment, but I will probably get more nervous as the days progress. 

The only thing that I can physically talk about on here regarding an update is that I need to cut back on a lot with my life. I need to put myself, my family (including partners) and my book first right now or I’m going to go crazy again.

I wish I could explain more about what’s  been going on, but I don’t want to affect any outcomes. One day I will be able to talk about it publicly but now isn’t the time. 

Pure Evil

So if you had read one of my previous posts, you will have noticed that I have FINALLY quit smoking cigarettes. I got a few questions from the post so I thought I would explain why and how I have actually quit. 

Every year I had been telling myself that I wanted to give up the habit and every year without fail I would give up after a couple of days. This year I got given the go ahead for top surgery and also lower. What finally sparked my drive to quit was my lower surgery consultation and how much he said that I didn’t actually need to quit, I just needed to not smoke before the surgery. He then went and said I was a non smoker on my records. This gave me the push to say FUCK YOU and actually quit. 

So I now vape. Yes I’m one of those people. I don’t have a fancy set up or a set up that requires a PHD in electronics to work. I just have a basic set up with a decent sized battery.

I am however really funny when it comes to e-liquid flavours though and it took me a very long time to find a brand that I love. Pure Evil is that brand. They taste amazing. Honestly they have worked so hard creating the perfect flavours the only other liquids I buy are “pocket fuel” and no other companies (until I start making them, oh and there is also “Charlie’s chalk dust” which is another good one. The pancake one is amazing). 

Pure evil liquid tastes like a premium liquid and is worth every penny. If you want to try how good they are, I highly recommend “sloth” from their seven deadly sin’s collection. Its a mixture of berries and is really refreshing. Wrath is also another one of my faves. Its coconut and raspberry, its quite sweet. 

Also for a bonus, you get bottles with skulls on. The boxes are visually pleasing and they tell you exactly what flavours you have. 

As an extra bonus they are 3 for £10 in the vape store. That is the one right next to Churchill square in Brighton and you can try ALL the flavours before you buy. 

Long story short. If you want yo finally quit the habit, vaping is the way to go. 

Goodbye My Lover

Well its official. You have spent many years being a part of my life but because you were so unhealthy and toxic for me, I had to give you up. Yes, this break up is going to be hard but I can manage without you now. Its time to not look back. 

Yes, its official. I am quitting cigarettes. I am now day 8 into this (I had a blip yesterday and had 2) and slowly I’m going to stop nicotine completely. 

I’m now using a vape which is honestly so much better and I will eventually be cutting down the nicotine in that too. 

I got this. I don’t need cigarettes anymore. 

Age Is More Than A Number

I was reminded earlier on this week that I was soon approaching 30, OK I have a 29th to go through first, but I’m edging towards being a fully pledged adult.

Me totally being an adult right here

I don’t know why the thought of turning 30 is starting to scare me. Getting older happens to everyone. But i t has made me think about my life more, and what I eventually want to do (or at least get planned) before I reach that huge milestone.
So here are my plans and ideas for the next year and 5 months.

* I’ve got to eventually quit smoking cigarettes. Seriously as much as I love them, its not healthy. So I’m going to move to vaping, then cut down my intake slowly.

* As much as I enjoy being a little bit chunky round the sides, I also would like to try and loose a little bit more weight. I know this means that I need a better relationship with food to do that, but I will get there.

* Have a consistent form of therapy. Actually see someone a couple of times a month regularly to get out my feelings

* Get out the fucking country. I need to go visit somewhere across the water. Even if its just for a couple of days.

* Run an online shop and don’t give up on it. Make and design more things. Make some money from my skills

* Start writing the book you have been saying you should have written ten fucking years ago.

* Consistently blog more.

Now I know that seems alot, but I’m going to try and do this. If I fail, at least I know that I have tried, and on the plus side, I will gave some stuff to write about

What are your goals for the next year / decade / milestone. What are you trying to achieve? Get in touch and tell us your story.

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