Ten things I’m thankful for – 12

Hello everyone, its been a couple of weeks since I have done this and posted to you peeps. So I will use this as a catch up post and work out what I’m thankful for as I go though.

I am now sea blue, technically I’m two different shades through my hair, which is pretty awesome. So thank you to Directions for providing such a great colour.
I had Valentines day with both my beautiful partners, which was amazing. So I am thankful for both of them being here for me as well as Day’s all you can eat buffet for giving us a table with zero hassle.
Whilst I am writing this I’m being shouted at for fuss by the smallest of my fur children. Teto is a needy little bastard (Bebo is cuddling Kai right now) and if I don’t stroke him, he will shout in my face. So I’m thankful that both my cats are needy little shits, and I love them for it.
During the Non Binary workshops this week that I run with Kai, I had a seizure. I felt rough as fuck but I’m feeling a shit ton better. I hate the brain fog I get before it all. So I’m thankful for people not making a fuss over it, as well as the staff running reception at the clare project.
FTMB staff have been utterly wonderful as usual, so I thank Kai, Ed and Charlie for being there.

The British museum, because its great to see cool things for free.
And finally. IM GETTING THE MAN TITS CHOPPED OFF!!!
So thank you to, charing cross gender clinic, Dr Lorimer, my family, my partners, the medical staff and teams. Thank you for everyone for being there and supporting me through this.

This may not have been exactly ten things. But they are huge key things that have happened.

Till next time ❤

2.5 Years And A Valentine’s Day

So on the 12th it was officially two and a half years since I have been on hormone therapy. I think I can safely say that now I’m starting to see some considerable changes from when I first started.

Me today

Before i started hormones

For starters I’ve shifted about 20kg in those years, which I’m so fucking proud of. Secondly, I’ve improved mentally, developed more masculine features and the “girl” curves are on their way to leaving. I’m slowly getting the beard (though its not noticeable in the top picture). I’ve also become more confident in myself as the months have passed recently.
Downsides are that I’m STILL suffering from back acne, but its now turning up all over. I think the body wants me to be a hairy bear. I just wish I didn’t have to go through the acne hell before it turns up. Recently my throats been greeting scratchy, so I’m probably due another voice break soon, and sleep is still all over the place. Its also coming up to my first appointment with Charing Cross, so I’m a bit all over the place trying to work out how I feel. Hopefully though I get my first signature for top surgery, but I don’t have my hopes up.

In other news, Valentines day happened on Sunday. I got to spend time with both Steph and Kai at the same time, without it being group work related. Although I think I can say all three of us were feeling like shit that day, we managed to go to dinner at Day’s and spend a little bit of time at The Marlborough. We are planning to see Deadpool on Sunday (expect a review) and I’m going to do separate days with both of them.
I am so lucky to have two wonderful partners who are so supportive, but between partners, groups and sleeping, there are not enough hours in the day to do anything else.
I wouldn’t change it for the world though ❤