I think I’ve already posted about my fears before, and I think this is the same thing but I will explain again things that make me shit myself with terror.
Furbies – fuck that!!! I have a phobia of them, honestly they are the scariest thing in the world.
Loosing my family. That scares me, I don’t know what I would do without them.
Loosing all my contacts. What happens if I’m in an emergency? There will be no one to get hold of.
Donald Trump. Sorry supporters, but he terrifies me.
So on the 12th it was officially two and a half years since I have been on hormone therapy. I think I can safely say that now I’m starting to see some considerable changes from when I first started.
Before i started hormones
For starters I’ve shifted about 20kg in those years, which I’m so fucking proud of. Secondly, I’ve improved mentally, developed more masculine features and the “girl” curves are on their way to leaving. I’m slowly getting the beard (though its not noticeable in the top picture). I’ve also become more confident in myself as the months have passed recently.
Downsides are that I’m STILL suffering from back acne, but its now turning up all over. I think the body wants me to be a hairy bear. I just wish I didn’t have to go through the acne hell before it turns up. Recently my throats been greeting scratchy, so I’m probably due another voice break soon, and sleep is still all over the place. Its also coming up to my first appointment with Charing Cross, so I’m a bit all over the place trying to work out how I feel. Hopefully though I get my first signature for top surgery, but I don’t have my hopes up.
In other news, Valentines day happened on Sunday. I got to spend time with both Steph and Kai at the same time, without it being group work related. Although I think I can say all three of us were feeling like shit that day, we managed to go to dinner at Day’s and spend a little bit of time at The Marlborough. We are planning to see Deadpool on Sunday (expect a review) and I’m going to do separate days with both of them.
I am so lucky to have two wonderful partners who are so supportive, but between partners, groups and sleeping, there are not enough hours in the day to do anything else.
I wouldn’t change it for the world though ❤
We did a T-shirt session, this is what we designed , I hope to see them all at trans pride on Saturday
These were not all of them, they were all wonderful in their own right. I love when we do making and craft sessions and the more paint the better