Yes, I am so happy that I had top surgery, but I thought I would be healed already and I could go back to normal, but no. I am still in quite a bit of pain at times.
Physically really well. My scarline is much smaller than anticipated and the swelling is going down now. I’m still covered on residue glue, which is fine. But they look like streaky dirt lines. I still look a bit wonky and bulgy in places, but it’s normal and worst case is that I have a revision before I get my nipples tattooed.
Pain wise , it’s getting there. It still hurts from time to time, and it’s more of an ache than anything else throughout the day, but it’s livable.
Emotionally, I’m fucking drained. I want to be better and go back to normal life, what ever the fuck that is. I know I’m about half way through recovery and that sucks so much.
Apart from that, I’m taking each day as it comes. The title image was done by a wonderful photography student called Anna Lodge who took photos as part of her studies for the university of Sussex, working with specifically under 30s with tattoos.
I few months ago, I offered my “Fuck you it’s your turn, Friday” post to a really good friend of mine, and in turn he told me where to stick it, because he didn’t like homework.
A couple of days ago he asked if the offer still stood, and hr delivered this short piece.
Alfredo has been a wonderful friend to me the past couple of years, has a great food page (which is going through possible name change at the moment, reasons why I haven’t posted it). He also admins a gamin page as well as working for P0j0 on the group P0j0vasWitnesses. He is probably one of the funniest and caring individuals I have had the privilege to work with, and has a great fucking smile!
As an introduction to this, I would like to say that grief can affect everyone in different ways. It makes it no less important, what ever it is. But we all have coping mechanisms to deal with loss. Without further wording needed, here is Alfredo’s post.
When are you gonna shave that beard?…..
Is a question I get asked on a regular basis, and was just asked once again this morning. It’s not something I actually came to realized and admit until I felt like explaining to a co-worker,… and it hit me like a ton of bricks…….
I started growing my beard back at the beginning of November, for “Movember” and then something REALLY significant happened in my life… I lost my mom.
Every single time I hear that question it triggers memories of her. I know it seems weird, but I guess the main reason I haven’t shaved is that my beard is my reminder of her and the family that I had. Although we weren’t the Brady Bunch, we were still family and that seems to have unraveled once she passed. I didn’t type this out as a plea for people to stop asking me about shaving my beard, on the contrary…..
I might give a smart-ass response to the question, but ANYONE that knows me will know that it just means I’m in the right state of mind(for me at least)
please don’t be afraid to ask, so that I might remember and thanks