I was given two options for today and I couldn’t pick between either one of them, so I decided to go for both.
Colours mean a lot to me. I picture the two flags that symbolise my identity as a person. The two flags colours are blue, pink and purple / blue, pink and white. The first one is the bisexual flag, the second is the transgender flag.
Please reverse google image search for original artist. I couldn't find them and i would love to credit them.
I use these flags and not the generic rainbow flag because of its representation it now has. The rainbow flag to me is about the cis lesbian and gay community. Something that I am neither. I hold my trans status with pride because I have fought battles with my own gender and overcome them. I hold the bisexual flag close to me because I love people regardless of gender or genitals.
Colours show me what people have to overcome for equality, be it people of colour who get mistreated by our white culture. Black power still gets labeled as a hate group to this day, even though what they protest is justifiable. All black lives matter keeps getting white washed on the internet and as for queer POC accurately represented in the media, forget it. People of colour are still getting murdered for being who they are, and it needs to stop. Right fucking now!
When I think of candles, I think of the people we have lost. Our loved ones that are no longer a part of us anymore. At the last transgender day of remembrence we lit a candle for every person who had died that year. The amount of people of colour that had been murdered was fucking disgusting. Each year the number seems to get higher and higher, it needs to stop. The murder of trans women of colour needs to stop. Everything needs to stop.
Candles also remind me of my birthday, and this month I turn 29 which is a huge thing for me. Considering my life I always thought I would be dead by now. With each year passed I am thankful that depression hasn’t destroyed me.
Finally candles remind me of my mum because she’s do obsessed with them, they always remind me of being at home with her, liking all the different smells and colours. She normally has about 20 different ones around the house at a time. My favourites are always the Christmas cinnamon smelling ones, because they always smell so good.
Thank you so much for reading my blog post. What does Colour / Candles make you think of? I would love to hear from you.
Tomorrow is D. I look forward to letting you read the next post.
Very rarely do I ever decide to do a review on an app, but this has kept me amused for a good few days. This is Colorfy its a colouring in app where you can share what you have coloured onto social media.
The pros of this app is that you can colour designs anywhere you are. There is a mixed selection and you can make your own ones providing it has text in it. It is also really easy to use and if you fuck up there is an undo function. You can also look at other peoples design ideas and like them.
There are also cons and some pretty big cons. You cannot save the pictures unless you either screen cap or share them to instagram and use the auto save features.
There also is limited choice of colours and colouring in pages unless you buy them and even then its not a one off payment, its a monthly subscription.
Also its not cheep if you were to pay for the subscription. Its about £25 for the year and for a mobile app I think personally that’s a bit much for something I would just casually play with.
However I really do like the app. I personally wouldn’t pay for the full subscription but I feel like others may do. It has brought me several hours of entertainment and I am probably going to keep using it until all the free patterns are coloured in and there are quite a few free ones, and for that reason alone I would recommend you trying the app out.
I have been battling with artists block for quite a while now. When I say quite a while, its been 3 years of not being able to either start or complete something.
From a very early age I had always enjoyed painting. I originally started off on natural work and mainly painted and drew flowers but it progressed more on a natural yet totally unnatural setting. A lot of my work I based it on death.
I suppose that now I am starting to work through recovery from all of my demons (though still highly unwell at times) it has been difficult to do this. And what time I could find, I have spent now writing a blog.
I think its about time now that I went back to the drawing board. I just want to grab a large canvas and see where it takes me. I don’t know where my brain will, and I think that is possibly the reason why I struggling to start a piece now.
So I have decided that next year I want to start painting again, properly. Get some work out there, aim to get at least 3 pieces out there that I am happy with and possibly one sold. I know it seems like a lot of work, but I’m hoping that it will pay off for me. Not as in a monetary way, but more of an emotional one. And maybe not destroy my work after a period of time either. Because that’s a really bad habit of mine.