So I posted this on my Facebook, and honestly writing this twice is just going to frustrate me, so I’ve just copied it exactly. If there is any questions then please ask me, I’m not ashamed about being honest about this.
I’ve been wrestling with this for a long time, and I have spoken to a few of you in the past couple of months, and I really appreciate everything that has been said to me.
Over the years I have maintained my bisexual identity, I have always said that regardless of gender and presentation I have always been attracted to everyone.
The truth is (and I of all places realised this whilst I was at bifest of all places) that I’m actually probably gay. I’m primarily attracted to masculinity and more masculine folks (regardless of gender, I have always maintained that anyone can be masc). I have spent forever trying to hide this and in all honesty the toxic environment of the cis gay community has been a huge part of it. I don’t even know if gay even is the proper term for me, fuck knows. Why does being queer have to be so complicated??
Whilst on a technicality I am still bisexual, I do not feel as if this label is best suited to me anymore. This is also I suppose my resignation from Brighton bothways too in a way. You have been a wonderful community and I will still be around but as friend and not a bisexual member.
I have honestly struggled with telling everyone about this as I have been not only pretty fucking vocal about being bi but it had been something I thought I genuinely was for the rest of my life. I had always told people that sexuality was always fluid, but never considered myself to listen to my own advice.
So yeah, I’m sorry for letting anyone down over this, if I have. I suppose everything that’s happened in the past month has made me realise that life is a very delicate thing and that hiding from shit really isn’t best for anyone.
So yeah. That’s it